It’s kind of like when I was 8 years old.

At that time, I was like THE school "Bully". I was the best fighter; I had the best handwriting and I was the best athlete.  No one dared to touch me. I did whatever I wanted to do in school.

One day, I don't remember why but we got into a fight. I got surrounded by other students. And one of my closest friend flying kicked me from the back. I got knocked down. It stunned me at that moment when I was on the ground thinking how could this happen! I was never in that position before. And the person who did that to me was a close friend of mine. I think that moment in time made me who I am today. I think I am the best at what I do all the time. Actually, In everything! That is where I made the biggest mistake in understanding myself. 

If I am the best at anything, I wouldn't be sitting here doing this. I would a multi-billionaire sitting in a yacht somewhere exotic.

That's the revelation that happened in 2025. What happened in almost 60 years ago happened again.

Gemini Pro AI describes me as a fine art photographer. I’ve come to accept that is what I am. I had an exhibition last month trying to prove to myself that I am indeed a fine art photographer. I had a show in a country that has no interest in art. A country that I love and live in now, Laos. My close friend’s comment summed it all up; “It’s all just black color and white color to me!” looking at my artwork which was black & white photographs. What kind of response can I give to that?

Flabbergasted, I did not say anything but grin. The show wasn’t about showing my work to a serious audience, it was to prove that I am still the game. To prove that I can do it, again. I did.

2025 was a year about lackadaisically finding oneself. Although it reached its peak at the end. Intensely ingrained a new thought in my head to “change”. One thing I am proud of is the series of photographs I created and titled Latent Epiphany.

It’s carefully chosen 40 photographs of clouds in black & white. I love clouds. They tell me a lot story.

“Truth” is my favorite. When I took it, I felt like I was embraced by a heavenly creature. I was just stunned when I release the shutter. I cannot forget that feeling. It was such a colossus over me and I felt so small. I could not see another cloud formation as such. It was just for me. It’s special.

Very special.